There is a part of me that wants to say to hell with 2015, it was one of the worst years of our lives. However, the cancer diagnosis and last four months of 2015 is just fresh – not defining. I got angry with myself as I realized how much I was taking away from the rest of the year if I had that mindset. Tom & I took some wonderful trips in 2015, we added a nephew to our Aunt and Uncle duties, some of our closest friends had the most beautiful babies, I got an awesome new job filled with an amazing group of coworkers, we had the majority of our first year in our first home (including an awesome wine cellar project), and so many other great things. Certainly I wish cancer wasn’t on our list of things that happened this year but we fully intend to be celebrating being cancer free, and I know that will bring us a lot of great moments in 2016. While we had some of our worst days in 2015, we had some great ones too, and I refuse to let our current hell define 8 other wonderful months.
As I’ve mentioned, we’ve been in this weird limbo - however, a few days ago Tom said he felt the best he has felt in 4+ months. He made dinner this week, was running errands and doing work from home. I’m thrilled he’s feeling better – however, it’s a bit of a tease that I know we will be back at square one in just a few weeks. But – we aren’t going to dwell on that, instead we will make every effort to enjoy these few weeks of “normal” before surgery and make the most of the time we have while he’s feeling better. While we are still cautious of germs, we certainly have more ability to be out and about which is awesome.
So I wouldn’t say I have any resolutions this year – I never quite understood that to be honest – why limit yourself to one time a year to reflect and improve? I anticipate that our first few months of 2016 will be the toughest but it’s my hope that each month gets better. We have every intention of continuing to be as positive as possible and tackle this one day at a time – and that to me is the only resolution we can make going into 2016.
For everyone that helped us get through 2015, from the bottom of our hearts, thank you. We wouldn’t have made it this far without you, and feel better knowing you’ll all be behind us going in 2016. Happy New Year!