Of course, the one day he goes into work we get hit with an ice/snow storm during the commute home. I had quite a harrowing commute home only to end up in a snowbank in my driveway. It took me a solid 20 minutes to get myself out but I used some of my tricks (car mats!) and was able to rescue myself. Of course Tom pulled up right as I had just dug myself out which actually is for the best because I wouldn’t have let him help anyway and he would have gotten frustrated watching me try to get myself out. I cleaned up with the snow blower, until it ran out of gas, and then finished up with some shoveling. These types of things are what really drive Tom crazy because he hates that he can’t help – but he needs to lay low and recover.
It’s a bit tricky for him right now – while he feels stronger each day, his body is still recovering from quite the beat down over the past 12 weeks. We are definitely on track for him to feel great by surgery – but it is a weird limbo to be in where he is feeling better but still needs to be very careful about not getting sick and let his body continue to recover. However, this has afforded us some more “normal” types of days which has been great for both of us. The other thing that this “limbo” has created is an opportunity to take a deep breath and realize what the heck just happened for the past 3+ months – and more importantly – start to figure out what lies ahead and get our heads wrapped around the new normal. Admittedly, we had to make decisions, and move fast so I don’t think we processed a lot of what happened. These waves of emotions are just starting to hit and it is a lot to process while still trying to keep our heads in the game and prep for surgery and the likelihood of more chemo. So despite us not being in the thick of chemo, or yet at surgery it’s still a day-by-day process, but we’re doing the best we can :) More to come…